Tangled Up In Lace

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Every day I hold, in my hands, smell, touch and feel, all the ways I’m healing and encouraging that Little Girl

She got away and it saved her.

I ate 5 freezer corndogs in one sitting the other day and felt like crying, but didn’t because I didn’t want to talk about it, because it felt good to do that in a place where it wasn’t going to follow me if I didn’t want it to. 

It felt rich. 

I enjoyed every minute of it. 

My hair looks really fucking gay and people who used to walk right through me, think about what my masses would look like bouncing back off their strapons and it makes my blood curdle.

You won’t ever get this and I’m growing my hair out. 

We don’t have two pennies to rub together but every day with Them feels like an all expense paid vacation to Heaven

My dad keeps calling and leaving sloppy beer soaked pleas and all of a sudden I’m sitting next to a neat pile of hair wondering why you won’t get real so the rest of us can go on.

I’m seeing Her in my face and gestures more and more every day and I’m just trying to figure out how to forgive without falling.

But don’t any of you feel worried about me because I never think of you and every day when I remind myself to keep not to thinking about you, it makes me stronger. 

Don’t keep in touch

Don’t stay cool over the summer

I don’t 143

 

 

Gmail’s suggestions to me while I’m responding to my father’s email apologizing for my childhood.
Damn Gmail, you’re cutthroat

Gmail’s suggestions to me while I’m responding to my father’s email apologizing for my childhood.

Damn Gmail, you’re cutthroat

After today let’s all be supportive of eachother going cold turkey from coddling masculinity. Remember just like cigarettes, you take it one day at a time and ask for the help you need! Chewing gum helps!

how do we forgive our fathers

drfitzmonster:

How do we forgive our Fathers?
Maybe in a dream
Do we forgive our Fathers for leaving us too often or forever
when we were little?

Maybe for scaring us with unexpected rage
or making us nervous
because there never seemed to be any rage there at all.

Do we forgive our Fathers for marrying or not marrying our Mothers?
For Divorcing or not divorcing our Mothers?

And shall we forgive them for their excesses of warmth or coldness?
Shall we forgive them for pushing or leaning
for shutting doors
for speaking through walls
or never speaking
or never being silent?

Do we forgive our Fathers in our age or in theirs
or their deaths
saying it to them or not saying it?

If we forgive our Fathers what is left?

— Dick Lourie

* This poem is read during the last scene in Smoke Signals. It was 
originally published in a longer version titled “Forgiving Our 
Fathers” in a book of poems titled Ghost Radio published by Hanging 
Loose Press in 1998

(Post reblogged from bossyfemme)

Big love to everyone out there wading through their Daddy Issues today! Also lots and lots of love to single moms, you’re doing the work of angels without even half of the appreciation and I’M SORRY FOR THAT