I have not felt so much like myself in a very long time. I knew I was unhappy, but I don’t think I could grasp the severity, nor did I let myself grasp the severity, probably out of self-preservation.
The last few days have been wildly productive, eye-opening, hope-inspiring and filled with happiness.
This evening as I was having drinks on a patio with old and new friends, a new friend asked ” Isn’t it scary?” (in reference to quitting my job to venture out on my own)
” Slightly. ” I said ” Not nearly as scary as doing something that you hate, that is crushing you, and you feel yourself slowly slipping away. That is the really scary thing, sacrificing yourself”
I was really struck by my own words, and I am very proud of myself for fighting to get where I am now. Things have been falling into place for me since I decided to throw caution to the wind and take a chance.
Sure, it is scary. I don’t know what the future will hold- maybe I’ll be a broke ass, and I’ll have to start from square one all over again, but you know what? That’s okay. I’m going to live life on my terms. I will have my very own shop, I will create something real and full of life and passion. I will be my own boss, and bring something positive and new to my city and community.
I feel like I’m only just starting to live my life after 26 years, and that is extremely liberating and satisfying.
Ugh so proud of you and deeply envious as well. I need to take your story and use it for inspiration because Manon knows, I am not where I need to be
So happy for you!!!
UGH TELL ME ABOUT IT
Ezra was a natural birth, but let me tell you if I ever decide to be a parent again, I’m just going to the pound
So glad you’re back from your Tumblr break!! xoxo
Have I told you lately how I basically live to see what pages you’ve liked on Facebook?
Some day all of us merbabes will be together and it will be SLUTTY
takes one to know one!!!
I sent out your package today my beautiful baby sister perfect sass mouth angel
let it go baby boo, let it go
Her friends, if they’re smart enough, will know what’s up by themselves and honestly you’re better off just cutting ties and finding better people to keep in your life
You don’t need to tell her to get bent, life’s probably already telling her and you don’t need to waste any more time on all this anger you’re harboring
My iPhone finally autocorrects pussy and throbbing!! Super Slut 4 Life
Nah girl you’re a hero and a legend to me now
People who don’t see that need to get their head checked out
I’m SO EMBARRASSED
I thought I was already!!
you’re so cute!! xox
YUP I feel you
The good news is that there are SO MANY of us lower working class femme unicorns decorating ourselves every day
there are a few options:
thrifting/swaps/dumpter diving (I do it all the time and have no shame about going through folk’s trash. I’ve found a cheetah body suit, new to me flat iron and too many accessories dumpter diving)
five finger discount (I’m not even going to deal with the hate mail i’ll get from this so save your breath holier than thou folks because you’re wasting your time with me, i’m not stealing from you) Be careful, be smart and don’t get too cocky. Corporations steal from you every day, do you like they do them you know?
make it!! there was a lot of shit going around about this before, but basically my $5 hot glue gun is my family. Get yourself some glitter (dollar store) and just glue it to everything you own. sequin trim can glam up anything and think of all the bows!!!
find some friends who wear around the same size and milk that shit for everything its worth. take good care of their things and you know, ask first
also, treat yourself sometimes! there have been times in my life (i mean, most of my life if we’re being real) where i have eaten only top ramen or not paid my gas bill or whatever just because sometimes a pair of red shoes make me walk taller and sassier when i’m out in the world and that’s really fucking important
keep your chin up doll!
if you’re anywhere near an 18,20,or 22, message me!! I have some stuff i’d totally send you <3 <3
you have given me so much with this message, you have no idea
Thank you for being brave and surviving and fighting every day
i love you xoxox
Gimme a bath, a bottle of wine and some songs by emotionally available boys and tough & tender lesbians and no one gets hurt
I’m following a lot of blogs run by guys who are either questioning their gender identity, are pre-t for circumstances beyond their control, or are really early into hormonal transition and I just want you guys to know that there are people out there who will love you and accept you as you are. I know it’s hard to believe that and feel that sometimes, especially when you face uncertainty and resistance, but it’s the truth and I want each of you to try your best to remember that.
are you following Ryan? you need to be
Ryan can I just say that I love that you specifically missed me?
I’ve actually been working at my job lately!!
Can you even imagine??
Its good though, I needed to step away from Tumblr (step away for me which is like, just not being on 24 hours a day) and do me for a little bit
BUT I MISSED YOU <3 <3
I would mouth kiss the person who first thought about eating avocados. So smart
SOMETIMES I JUST DON’T KNOW ABOUT YOU NORA
You’re still my perfect angel baby sister, even if you’re ignorant to one of the greatest cinematic masterpieces AROUND
I try to always look slutty
I mean, when you’re fat and you have big tits, you actually have to try pretty fucking hard to not look slutty.
My outfit yesterday would have been juvenile and unassuming on a thinner small breasted person, but on me, I couldn’t walk 2ft without someone saying something about me in a sexual manner.
In my experience in my fat body, I’m so oversexualized because of my body before I even really get a chance to show people how slutty I really am
I used to feel really trapped by that
Now I’m just laughing
People will judge you for your big hair and people will judge you for your flat hair
In my world, the bigger the hair, the fucking better
SOMETIMES STRANGERS ARE JUST SO FUCKING SWEET
oh yeah definitely and like while I know they’re totally into it and having a ball like I would be in their situation…the second I orgasm, I instantly feel bad for them and lose all context of the video you know?
But like…only when I’m watching it happen to someone else.
When I’m having sex and being called a filthy slut and my partner’s marking me up, I am loving every minute of it.
The mind is a weird thing.
I’m not really interested in what Freud has to say about this